This is my speed paint for today, it is a Sea Rabbit hatching out of a mussel. The word was Muscle, but i painted whatever i wanted :P it took about 35mins. I learnt a ton from this one speed paint, some of it was purely accidental. I stumbled across a way to create that shiny colouryness on the mussels. I forced myself into thinking more about composition, I think this often brings my speedpaints down a notch, i think it came out fairly nice this time.
I want to write a bit more about creativity, continuing from my most recent blogs.I feel as if there is a heavy 'brag' culture. This really irritates me. I hate it when people think they are better than other people. This is one reason why i may have got so worked up over grades. I try to do well, because i want to avoid the bragging of others. Bragging is happening constantly, about significant and petty things. Its pressurizing and generally not very nice. It's a horrible characteristic.
This also made me think about Grading in general as being a horrible thing. From a young age being graded for your ability. If you do well, your under pressure to continue to do so. If you do badly, you under pressure to get better, you feel like a failure, you may get partly ignored by a teacher who has already chosen her favorites. Its a terrible system, growing up with this constant judgment.
All I can do is try hard not to make people feel this pressure. By looking at peoples work fairly, but also being positive. Too often i see negative responses to peoples work, when they actually deserve to be told they are doing a good job, and that they have come a long way.
Everyone in our class has different abilities. And by the standards of the Games industry we are all at different levels. But, everyone whose work i have seen has come a long way. And everyone deserves to be commended for that.
I can't be dealing with being so judgmental. I feel sorry for the people who have to judge us, because it seems almost an impossible task.
I don't want to feel the pressure I've felt all through my education anymore, I don't want to make other people feel that way either. I just want to do what makes me happy, and this is it, it just works better with friends and not judges.
2 comments:
I think your posts on the assessment/grading issue are really interesting, and I think it's important that you can raise such issues.
It's something I really want to talk about in some depth at some point, if you think it would be a good idea.
There are all sorts of issues and I think a good, frank discussion of them is too everyone's benefit. We've had several discussions in the office recently about grading etc, and it is seomthing we are seeking to improve.
Will we ever come up with a perfect assessment scheme? I doubt it, but it's always worth questioning systems and making sure they work and are the best possible for the time.
Good one; tell it like it is.
Good job with your painting too. Mussel!
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